This year is already flying by....I can't believe February is half over. April will sneak up on me like a nightmare. Our taxes have still not been done. And I really don't anticipate them getting done in time. But then we're never on time, anyway, so why start now?
Too many distractions. Am I ADHD? Nah, just totally unmotivated. The daily nothingness and "everything-ness" get in the way of clear thinking. I nearly had two traffic accidents before 7:30 am. and I thought I was paying attention. Guess not. Maybe some part of my brain was still sleeping..........sssnnnxxxxxxxxxx............................................
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Gotta get to work!
My new site is up but I have MUCH to do! I really have to learn better time management skills. I have to build an inventory of artwork of every kind just to have something for potential customers to look at! Most of my work (older work) was damaged in a house flood so I don't have that to use as a foundation.
I wish I had a studio so I could isolate myself (from my domestic duties), my brain in particular, and be surrounded only by work related things. I seem to have a hard time switching gears. I know these things don't excuse my lack of discipline, but I really don't have any self discipline! Not with food. Not with time. Not with exercise. Not with seperating my priorities. What are my life goals? Excuse me? What are goals?............
I've let myself become the eternal victim. Life sortof lives me; I don't live life. Instead of being proactive I've been reactive......to almost everything. "I'm the mom therefore I have to put any and all dreams I have for myself in the back of the closet until everybody grows up (including my husband)." But two out of five are now grown and now I'm doing the same so I can take care of grandbabies.....Hey! I'm only 39. I have years left to think about me, right? Am I being selfish to complain? I really don't think so.
There were several continuing education classes at the college that I wanted to take this semester but they were either all day or at night which won't work. I've been collecting various art supplies just in case such a class happened to come my way but they will continue to gather dust until resurection day! For now, there are always frozen cappuccinos and iced lattes to indulge my fleeting fantasies.........
I wish I had a studio so I could isolate myself (from my domestic duties), my brain in particular, and be surrounded only by work related things. I seem to have a hard time switching gears. I know these things don't excuse my lack of discipline, but I really don't have any self discipline! Not with food. Not with time. Not with exercise. Not with seperating my priorities. What are my life goals? Excuse me? What are goals?............
I've let myself become the eternal victim. Life sortof lives me; I don't live life. Instead of being proactive I've been reactive......to almost everything. "I'm the mom therefore I have to put any and all dreams I have for myself in the back of the closet until everybody grows up (including my husband)." But two out of five are now grown and now I'm doing the same so I can take care of grandbabies.....Hey! I'm only 39. I have years left to think about me, right? Am I being selfish to complain? I really don't think so.
There were several continuing education classes at the college that I wanted to take this semester but they were either all day or at night which won't work. I've been collecting various art supplies just in case such a class happened to come my way but they will continue to gather dust until resurection day! For now, there are always frozen cappuccinos and iced lattes to indulge my fleeting fantasies.........
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