Day two

Hey! Another chance to write a bit! Blogs are very different than I expected. I thought they were just simple teen journaling sites. Boy was I wrong. If you want to read some funny stuff (It's funny if you're a parent!) then log on to www.mamalogues.com . She's a real riot. Wow, I sound like an old fogey!
Still waiting for the Charlotte Observer to call me back.....And the Carmel Country Club. I'm not really sure how to get back into the freelance business. Things seemed so much easier 20 years ago. Guess there are just too many enthusiastic art school grads out there for me to compete with. Visual merchandising would be fun again. Suppose I'll just have to take a few days, portfolio in hand, and hit the street. I have lots of excuses for not having done it already. Like "I need to be home to watch my grandbaby," "I need to be home because there is no one to watch my own kids," "I don't have enough experience," "My portfolio is too out of date," "My skills are out of date," "I don't have the energy I used to," "What if I can't meet a deadline?" and on and on and on!
I do have business cards now. Do I fear success? Maybe so. I fear taking on so much job responsibility that my responsibilities to my family will get put at the bottom of the list. I did that when my oldest was little and I was a single parent. I feel guilty still. And she now has a child of her own. I have to learn to be a risk taker without being a guilt keeper. I believe that's hard for a lot of mothers.
I had a part-time job (until this week) at a company called Shirestone, as the owner's personal assistant (think Girl Friday). I actually applied for the position she advertised last year which was "colorist." That meant being a faux finisher for the hand-poured countertops they fabricate. They are beautiful, by the way. My position quickly evolved into Administrative Something-or-other." The company was very new and she definitely needed an assistant of some sort. Unless I moved into a sales position, my salary would never change. It's not possible for me to work full-time so things just didn't work out for either of us. I'm sure when the company grows and they hire more employees things will be better for her. I wish her well but that apparently just wasn't and couldn't be me. Yes, she was very kind and personable and definitely a "type A" personality! And very good at being just that. I think I'm "type Z!"
O.k. I vented a little. But isn't that what blogs are for? My boys found a robin's nest that fell out of a tree during the storm and I'm still waiting for the folks from the wildlife conservation /bird rehab place to call back to except these poor little babies that are still in the nest. The boys said there were three babies yesterday, but when they went today to see if the mama bird came back, one of the babies was gone. :( Mason looked for it but still couldn't find it. I don't know how the mama would get them and the nest back into the tree anyway. But the "Bird Lady" will hand raise them then help them to get back into the wild when they are old enough.

Hey! The Bird Lady called. We took the little robins to the bird shelter. Now everyone is happy.........Sort of. I went to Red Rocks Bar & Grill to fill out an application for day bartender. I have to wait until tomorrow to hear from the hiring manager. We'll see what happens. I really don't want to have to go back into the bar business since I seperated from the kids' father because he still drinks too much. That kinda shows that mom has double standards. Not a good thing.