Things have got to change........Don't know exactly how or when....but something has to. I absolutely must find a job of some sort. But what? I can't and won't do the minimum wage thing. Nobody would hire me anyway for that; I'm "over qualified." Does hunger count as a qualification? Suppose not.
Let's see.....I graduated HS at the top of my class ('85), graduated with an AA at the top of my class, have completed 3 semesters toward my BFA and received certs in desktop publishing and printing. And none of that does me any good now since I haven't used it in the last 15 or so years. Just because I haven't been "swimming" in the last 15 years doesn't mean I've forgotten how to "swim." Have I forgotten how to ride a bike? No. Do these things require updated skills in order to perform them now? No....But everything else seems to. I'm a really fast learner...... And I listen well. Do these things count for nothing?
Ok, so I wouldn't be able to hit the ground running in any of the art fields. But can't I start out with a slow jog? Nope...'cause time is money. I understand that. But wouldn't it pay to invest in someone that you can train to do things just YOUR way? Does anyone pay for training anymore? Are there no paid apprenticeships anymore?
You know what? All I want to do is paint......PAINT,PAINT,PAINT! I want to see it, smell it, feel it, even taste it! And I don't mean house paint. I mean acrylic paint......Thick paint.....Thin paint.....Runny paint...... Does anyone know how I can make this happen and get paid doing it NOW?
Charlotte does not like outsiders in their art world...And I stress THEIR art world. If you don't come in on someone elses heels you can almost forget it. Names matter here. And my name isn't CHARLOTTE!
